suicidal thoughts
thinking about life,
reasons to live...
...For all we could have done
And all that could have been
Ocean pulls me close
And whispers in my ear
The destiny I've chose
All becoming clear
The currents have their say
The time is drawing near
Washes me away
Makes me disappear
I descend from grace
In arms of undertow
I will take my place
In the great below...
"The Great Below"
...What if all the world you used to know
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection
Is it all you want it to be?
Feel the hollowness inside of your heart
And it's all
Right where it belongs...
"Right Where It Belongs"
...And the sky is filled with light
Can you see it?
All the black is really white
If you believe it...
"In This Twilight"
...I believe I can see the future
Cause I repeat the same routine
Sometimes I think I'm happy here
Sometimes, yet I still pretend
I can't remember how this got started
But I can tell you exactly how it will end
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same
But I just don't know, I don't know what else I can do
"Every Day Is Exactly The Same"
...I'm becoming less defined as days go by
Fading away
And well you might say
I'm losing focus
Kinda drifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself
Sometimes I think I can see right through myself
Less concerned about fitting into the world
Your world that is
Cause it doesn't really matter anymore...
"Only"
NINE INCH NAILS lyrics
Devious Journal Entry
Psychotic
Depressed
Distracted
...it means for me a big rest.
of course, my problems won't disappear/ but at least, i won't be tired fisically..but there are only two weaks.
